I think I need to take a break from social media, or filter out what I’m seeing for a while. I don’t know how long. All I know is that checking things and being in a constant state of “knowing” is leaving me drained and miserable. For some reason, today feels worse than most.
The state of our country and our current government is infuriating. Day after day I’m seeing people with no damn common sense or empathy in charge – and yeah, that includes our fool of a commander-in-chief and representatives. I WANT to stay informed – so I can know what they’re doing and prepare myself when it comes time to vote. But this constant incessant barrage of foolishness and hatred and no respect for their fellow man is tiring and I just can’t look at it anymore. Twitter is especially rough to look at. So many tweets and retweets about politics and human rights violations; about their flagrant disrespect for POCs and refugees and now CHILDREN…I can’t anymore. It hurts too much.
On Facebook, most of my communication is with my “dress cult” – the ladies I met and know through the Trashy Diva groups. Most of the groups I follow talk about dresses and makeup and other stuff like that – pretty things. But, since I’m in a financial bind, I’ve had to SERIOUSLY curb my spending. My plan is not to buy any new clothes until after Labor Day. This is a tough thing to stick to since one of my ways to relax is to shop online. And of course, all of my favorite brands are coming out with lots of new items now. Cap that off with medical bills and having to replace the windshield on Bucky (my Corolla), and I’m pretty dang cranky on Facebook lately.
Even Instagram, which is normally what I look at in the evening to relax, is frustrating me lately. It feels like nothing but 20-somethings in their perfectly winged eyeliner and contoured faces showing off all the cool things they’re going to and spending their money on, while I’m stuck at home feeling like poo and getting older. I can’t keep up, and it’s frustrating. I guess this is what getting old feels like.
Disconnecting from everything is extremely difficult – hell, I do social media for CoastCon so there’s no way that I can delete accounts and what-not – but there’s got to be some way to stay connected and avoid being dragged down by all this awfulness in the world. Maybe it’s time for me to hole up at home and do nothing but read romance novels to escape from reality at night.