Thanks, Trashy Diva.

There are very few pictures of me that other people take that I like. When other people take a picture of me, I pick the entire image apart, focusing on what I don’t like about myself. My double chin is too noticeable. My arms are lumpy and too big. My stomach sticks out. My eyes are so squinty. My hair is too frizzy. My face looks shiny. My legs are really lumpy. …and on, and on, and on. Over and over, all of the body positivity that I’ve worked toward is knocked down, bit by bit, until I end up hating myself. I’ve even had some wedding photos that I disliked, although there are a few cosplay photos that I was okay with. However, this mindset has gone through a major change in the past few months, and it’s mostly due to Trashy Diva. Trashy Diva is one of my absolute favorite clothing brands.  What […]

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Vacation.

One week until I head to bed and wake up at 4:00 and fly to Peoria to see L. My paycheck is going to hate me later…but I NEED this trip. I feel old and dragged down and drained, both mentally and physically. I want to feel young again. I need to take a road trip, sing along to the radio with a girlfriend, take stupid pictures and selfies and snapshots with my film cameras. I want to wear dresses and tights and boots and say “nope” to acting my age. I want to act like I’m 25 instead of 38 and not worry about people judging me. I want to watch Crimson Peak and make inappropriate comments about naked Tom Hiddleston to a friend after the show. I want to come back rejuvenated, my creativity sparked, my mind clear and ready to take on whatever it throws at me […]

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